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My head is hurting so much from frustration all the time and it won't stop for years and is only getting worse.

All i wish for is for my family to close the door so our cat doesnt escape. Our cat escaped once and since then they couldnt care less about closing the door. Its frustrating me so much i used to jumo out to immediately look for the cat but i got so exausted i can barelay stand up when i hear the doors were open. They donst close the doors or forget to close them nearly like every third day and i cant take it any more. I cant stand it i always run to find the cat i cant anymore, im osrry im exausted i cant stand this and i cant take this anymore. Another thing is im not allowed to express my emotions or else they will get insanely mad and i was never bothered by their yelling, bc that would involve an emotion(feeling bothered) which i cant, bc im to exausted frustrated and tired. I cant take this anymore im so sad and i have so little energy i wish i could disappear.

If only they cared a tiny bit to check if they closed the door, i cant act like their babysitter or parent anymore, which wouldnt be a problem if they didnt frustrtae and exaust me so much im desperate idk what to do i barely function and i need to stress about them closing the door properly bc i dont wanna loose my cat again, cant the at least do that themselves, and also when they dont close the door i also have to search for it which i would if i wasnt so exausted and out of energy for literally no reason.I cant keep closing the door and thinking about the door non stop or else i will loose my cat i would cry but im not allowed to im gonna go mad i just dont wanna loose my cat i cant monitor my family and the doors non stop i cant i wish they could look after themselves i just want this to stop im desperate!!!! i wanna cry but i cant they will get angry and i will seem like an idiot and a crybaby i just cant but i dont wanna loose my cat i need to keep checking the door. And then they wonder why im so stressed and cant figure it out... if only they could look after the door, and close it when they use it instead of crying and yelling when they dont my life would be so much better and so much easier... im so exausted and sad from them yelling "the door is open" for days...

I went to a cosplay convention for a few days and saw some ppl i alrady know and met new friends ^_^

It was so fun, there was a cosplay competition and someone was cosplaying a verru underrated vocaloid that i like!!! There was also a little treasure hunt thing where we got quests and hat to solve them to get some stickers, some would say the reward is probably small and it isnt enought but i liked it som much, it was fun and the stickers were so cute ^_^ There was also a band playing anime songs and i was so happy i recognised most of them \(^v^)/ It started with go!/fighting dreamers and i literally jumped with happiness /(>v< )/ I wished they would play it again at the end, and they did! :D I was so lucky! ^_^ After the first song they played mermaid melody which i dont remember but loved when i was little. After than i almost jumoing again from ahppiness bc they played tokyo mew mew!!! >u< I hoped they would alos play some more naruto openings and they did! :D When they played the "screaming pain opening" they said "you all better cry for this one XD" but i was clapping so much bc i was so happy how can i be sad when they decided to play another song i love a lot from something i love a lot XD lol \(^_^)/ Ofc they played silhouette (which i call nani mo XD) and blue bird ^_^ Later when i found a friend group (who i just met they were super nice ^_^) they pointed out how much kids there were that day, which is correct bc not enough ppl were clapping at any of the songs! >:( (jk im not actually angry XD) I think the ppl organising that thought more ppl who can remember any of those anime would come that day, i mean they did but sadly that day especially were mostly kids T_T Which i dont blame kids for not knowing old stuff at all bc after all, them just like me like stuff we grew up/are growing up with X3 I just wish more ppl who like those songs came there on that day. It was fun anyway it was amazing im so happy!!!!! /(>w< )/

I have so much nince memories from that day it was so amazing im glad i cam but usually i do go anywhere where theres fun XD X3 /(^w^ )/

I am so happy i got a new phone and started collage! :D X3 >v< \(^U^)/

I entered and came for the first leddon vbut the day after that i got sick DX T_T ugh i wish i didnt T_T But anyway, i will go when i get better so im happy i like it there! :D We also had free lemonade how ever much we wanted and free chocolate covered cookies that day bc it was the first day \^_^/ I love it there! ^-^

I got a new phone and its amazing!!!! :D My parents traded my old one, and this one has so much storage and i can play so much games on it and use it for school /(^v^ )/

I went at an event for ita bags, it was an event where everyone could trade their pins and there was also a competition of who has the best ita bag.

The winner was decided by ppl voting, and i didnt really wanna win i came to talk to ppl and trade pins, There were a lot of nice ita bags and everyone got 2 pins and 2 stickers for free for entering :D I'm so happy bc my ultra deduction (glasses emoji) told me that im gonna get a bsd pin and a pin of somethingi already know again (i once already got a bsd gift bag at random when i started watching it??? but i didnt predict that XD) This time i got a Dazai and a Miku pin! :D (i assumedi would get Dazai bc he is on all merhc XP but i guessed it XD) So i wanted to trade the Dazai for Ranpo, bc i really wanted a Ranpo pin and everyone likes Dazai.So as my ultra deduction predicted, i trade the Dazai pin for the Ranpo pin(it felt so unreal!!! im so excited im glad i got it!!! :D) The only thing i hoped is i didnt already have the pin they were giving and i didnt ^_^ Also turns out the person was just collecting pins at random so them trading any one of them away wasnt a big deal to them >_< I traded one of my stickers for a naruto sticker bc i didnt know what that was. I used a lot of crafted stuff on my ita bag, bc i thought it might make win so i kind of overaccesorised it into crafted stuff XD Butlike i said i wasnt that interested in winning i just wanted to maybe try and have fun decorating :3 (which is unusual bc im ALWAYS interested in winning and competing, the reason i wast this time is bc my ita bag is new and i didnt have enough stuff to put in it anyway XD so i competed but i didnt expect to win. It was very fun im supper happy with the pin i got and how i decorated my bag! \(^U^)/ I put on a keychain og a hyuna bunny my sister made out of clay and the era broke DX im sorry im glad she doesnt mind we will fix it < 3

It was fun im so happy!\(^U^)/